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the weapons of war perished - millerette - Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe [Archive of Our Own]
The soldier remembers--

 

I gotta tell you, Stevie, the love I got for you ain’t nothing like how I love my family. And if it’s a sin how much I love you, it sure as hell ain’t my worst one.
captainamerica  length-short  characterstudy  memories  religion  buckybarnes  pov-bucky  slash  steve/bucky  steverogers  samwilson  natasharomanov  catholicism  millerette  guilt  self-loathing 
january 2015 by ratcreature
If Ye Be Worthy (the Stubborn as a Brick Wall Remix) - Taste_is_Sweet - Multifandom [Archive of Our Own]
Bucky didn't even glance up from beating the trembling heavy bag to death. "You're gonna tell me that being turned into the Red Room's assassin and then Hydra's fucking attack dog for seventy-whatever years wasn't my fault and that Tony was talking crap and you can't think of anyone more worthy to hold Mjölnir than me."

"Well, you're right," Steve said, only barely surprised. "So why the hell are you still down here?"

The look Bucky threw him was too resigned for a glare. "Because we both know that's bullshit."
avengers  buckybarnes  mjölnir  steverogers  thor  team  tonystark  movienight  brucebanner  clintbarton  natasharomanov  taste_is_sweet  length-short  self-loathing  guilt 
january 2015 by ratcreature
Exchange Rate - freshbakedlady - Captain America (Movies) [Archive of Our Own]
Bucky's older memories are coming back, sometimes at the cost of more recent ones. What he cannot forget is tearing the wings off Sam Wilson. Too bad Bucky just let Steve talk him into staying with him and Sam. Consumed by guilt, the only thing Bucky knows to do by way of apology is to let Sam hurt him back. Fortunately, Sam has better ideas.
captainamerica  buckybarnes  samwilson  pov-bucky  steverogers  bucky/sam  length-medium  guilt  angst  bodymodification  freshbakedlady 
september 2014 by ratcreature
The Burdens We Long to Carry - arcapelago (arcanewinter) - X-Men: First Class (2011) [Archive of Our Own]
When mutant-supporter and ally President Kennedy is assassinated and all pro-mutant progress is dismantled, Charles is no longer so confident that he's on the right side, and extends his hand to Erik after a year of animosity. They settle tentatively into their old partnership, but not everything is the same as it was--and not everything can be. When Hank develops a metal frame to move the lower half of Charles' body for him if he wants it, Erik offers the use of his mind and his ability in order to make it work. Both find out what they're willing to do for each other, and neither knows if it'll be enough to keep them together.
x-men  slash  charlesxavier  eriklehnsherr  fixit  reconcilliation  charles/erik  disability  arcapelago  length-novel  telepathy  powerful-xavier  angst  hankmccoy  emmafrost  raven  post-firstclass  mutant-politics  mutant-oppression  guilt  mindcontrol 
july 2012 by ratcreature
Star-Crossed by Tyellas - Stories - Henneth Annûn
Posted in response to the HASA nuzgul "A Peredhil's Fate." The adventures of Elladan and Elrohir before, during, and after the War of the Ring, and how the great conflict of good and evil impacts a transgressive relationship. Novella length. Warnings for incest, graphic sex, slash, violence, angst, and elements of horror. Each part marked with warnings.
lotr  slash  incest  tyellas  elrond  elrohir  elladan  galadriel  guilt  length-novel  during-ringwar  pre-lotr  postwar  fourth-age  dunedain  gondor  pathsofthedead  angst 
february 2011 by ratcreature
Guide Me Home Chapter 1: The Innkeeper, an Avatar: Last Airbender fanfic - FanFiction.Net
This will be a chaptered Ursa/Hakoda story, interweaving with the events of the show. I'm going to write it so that it doesn't contradict anything in the canon of Avatar.
avatarthelastairbender  hakoda  ursa  het  zuko  katara  sokka  actionadventure  hakoda/ursa  iroh  azula  length-novel  pov-ursa  pov-hakoda  pov-3rd  meetingfamily  family  reunion  guilt 
august 2010 by ratcreature
Secret Vulcan Mating Rituals - Chase820 - Star Trek (2009) [Archive of Our Own]
Everyone knows the story of how James T. Kirk beat the Kobayashi Maru. But only Kirk, Spock, and McCoy know the real story. Set before and after the events of the film, this fic offers a slashtastic twist on events. Kirk/Spock, Kirk/McCoy friendship.
startrek  wip  st:aos  slash  het  kirk/spock  ponfarr  leonardmccoy  spock  tarsusiv  vulcan  alienculture  vulcans  originalcharacter  jamestkirk  kirk/omc  kirk/ofc  mccoy/ofc  angst  barfight  drunk  alcoholism  bond  mindmeld  dreams  guilt  survivorsguilt  academy  pre-canon  kobayashimaru  pov-multiple  pov-kirk  pov-mccoy  pov-spock  pov-3rd  pain  marking  biting  jealousy  family  puking  chase820  length-novel 
february 2010 by ratcreature
Ruby Nye's Fanfic Journal - Recognize This Compromise (Star Trek XI, NC-17 with warnings)
"So, McCoy is a sex crimes detective... Jim is an underaged hooker with a brutal childhood. McCoy picks him up in a bust and Jim will offer him anything not to get his name in the system..." From, where else, THE KINK MEME.
startrek  au  st:aos  slash  kirk/mccoy  underage  prostitution  earthside  hooker-kirk  childabuse  jamestkirk  leonardmccoy  detective  detective-mccoy  food  injury  injured-kirk  h/c  smart-kirk  rubynye  sexualabuse  dubcon  angst  guilt  length-short  pov-mccoy  pov-3rd  tense-present  tense-past  introspection 
august 2009 by ratcreature
run, don't walk - "fingerprints of forgotten memories"
“Jim presses his palm to his forehead, because suddenly there’s just a big fuzzy blip where the name of the planet used to be.” Mistakes that aren’t mistakes can snowball into something else entirely. Kirk/Bones.
startrek  st:aos  slash  kirk/mccoy  vacation  risa  bar  angst  leonardmccoy  establishedrelationship  jamestkirk  pov-kirk  pov-mccoy  sequel  length-long  tense-present  pov-multiple  pov-3rd  drugs  drugged-kirk  non-con  kirk/ofc  impliedhet  jealousy  memories  amnesia  amnesiac-kirk  dreams  breakup  spock  mindmeld  misunderstanding  christinechapel  injured-kirk  injured-mccoy  spock/uhura  drugged-mccoy  guilt  friendship 
august 2009 by ratcreature
Kagedtiger's Litter Box - Star Trek Fic: The Naked Time
Spock and Kirk's first kiss happened under less-than-fortuitous circumstances. A re-telling of the TOS episode "The Naked Time." More notes under the cut.
startrek  st:aos  jamestkirk  leonardmccoy  spock  sequel  slash  kirk/spock  pov-3rd  pov-kirk  mindmeld  bond  pov-spock  pov-multiple  telepathy  kagedtiger  length-short  series  grieving  guilt  episoderelated  ep-tos-nakedtimes  mentalillness 
july 2009 by ratcreature
Leah and Springwoof in Collaboration - FIC: Born on a Morning
"I created that virus, Sheppard! Just like I reprogrammed the incubator! And both times I fucked up beyond all redemption and other people suffered for it! Are suffering for it! And I can't fix it. I don't know how. I can't."
sga  leah  series  au  mckay/sheppard  ai  angst  series-malenhancement  johnsheppard  lorne  teylaemmagan  ronondex  rodneymckay  robot  originalcharacter  lorne/teyla  guilt  paralleluniverses  length-novel  pov-multiple  pov-oc  pov-lorne  breakup  clone!oneill  slash  het 
july 2009 by ratcreature
Stargate Atlantis Fanfic: Blind Justice
He touched something he shouldn't have, and it killed him. But that's not the end, not when you have friends willing to drag you back. John/Rodney/Elizabeth friendship.
sga  gen  sholio  johnsheppard  elizabethweir  rodneymckay  lorne  mpdjk  ancients  aliens  alienculture  nonhumanoidaliens  kateheightmeyer  coma  guilt  trial  virtualreality  offworld  trapped  prison  dreams  ai  angst 
december 2007 by ratcreature

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