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Memento - Cephy - Last Remnant [Archive of Our Own]
After the events at game's end, David finds something that makes him remember.
fic  id:cephy  f:LastRemnant  slash  angst  'ao3  short 
27 days ago by esther_a
Static Shock: Green by Rachelle Ryan (R / 61,644 words)
^It's unfair. I get cynical, philosophical, and just plain morose when I'm fatigued and he gets- _beautiful_.^ We stood there unmoving for what seemed like an eternity gazes locked. Until the panicked part of me jumping up and down in the back of my mind shouting that 'even Virgil was going to figure it out if I kept looking at him like I wanted to eat him' was able to wrest back control of my body. I swallowed the lump in my throat cursing Alva and his damn machine silently.
fic  f:staticshock  slash  s:Virgil/Richie  emoporn  angst  non-con  h/c  long  'ffn  via:coprime 
7 weeks ago by esther_a
To Those Left Behind, a clamp fanfic - FanFiction.Net
Tsubasa Touya and Yukito talk after the events of the first chapter.
fic  angst  short  f:CLAMP  f:Tsubasa  s:Touya/Yukito  'ffn 
9 weeks ago by esther_a
The Weaved Patterns of Connections - Ready Me a Tiny Corner
een Wolf kink meme prompt: During their time together Peter was so impressed with both Stiles mind and his looks that he claimed him as mate against Stiles' will, intending to turn him after settling everything when he could keep Stiles safe and make sure nothing went wrong. When Derek killed Peter he, as an unmated male, inherited not only the position of alpha but the previous alpha's mate. Stiles.
fic  f:TeenWolf  slash  non-con  angst  'LJ 
10 weeks ago by esther_a
Parker vs the World or The Silly Bandz Job Chapter 1, a leverage fanfic - FanFiction.Net
Parker is convinced that those crazy shaped rubber bracelets are actually being used to brainwash children at a local school. The team, mostly due to Sophie's encouragement, investigate. But is Parker right? We shall see.
fic  f:Leverage  gen  angst  'ffn 
february 2012 by esther_a
The Sign of Three - emungere - Sherlock (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
Mycroft takes his little brother to the park, where they meet John and pretend to be pirates. Story manages to be slightly depressing anyway. Sorry about that.
fic  f:SherlockBBC  gen  pre-canon  kidfic  angst  'ao3 
january 2012 by esther_a
Sic Transit Gloria Mundi - oliviacirce - Marvel 1602, Marvel, Iron Man (Movies) [Archive of Our Own]
Two days after his spies reported that Anthony Stark had returned to England—battered, they told him, but alive—Sir Nicholas Fury rode to Deptford.
fic  f:Avengers  yuletide  slash  AU  historical  timetravel  angst  long  'ao3 
january 2012 by esther_a
fic: Neglect me, lose me, only give me leave, Prydain, explicit
Chronicles of Prydain, Taran/Fflewddur, Taran Wanderer era
enthusiastic consent, intercrural sex, worship, traces of healing cock
2712 words, explicit
fic  f:Prydain  slash  angst  explicit  short  'dwth 
december 2011 by esther_a
NOR IRON BARS A CAGE
Archangel engineers a confrontation with Stringfellow Hawke about the truth of his brother's death, thereby setting events in motion which result in violent emotional catharsis and a perilous new unity between them.
fic  f:Airwolf  slash  angst  'personal-site 
november 2011 by esther_a
cap_ironman: When The Lights Go On Again 1/21
Rated: PG-13
Pairings: Steve/Tony, Hank/Jan, Carol/Wanda
Summary: Aliens have invaded earth, and the Avengers are scattered. While Steve leads the resistance, Tony once again finds himself playing captive scientist. In the midst of a violent alien regime, separated by seemingly insurmountable boundaries, Steve and Tony have nothing to keep themselves going but each other.
fic  comics-verse  long  plotty  angst  gen  slash  femslash  het  id:ElspethDixon  f:Marvel  f:Avengers  s:Tony/Steve  'LJ 
september 2011 by esther_a
demonqueen666: Thor Fic: "Kill all the pretty lies" (Darcy, Loki, PG-13), 1/10
Darcy only wanted to get away for awhile. Loki only wanted to indulge his curiosity. But fate has set their paths to crossing, with each other and with something more; something that will prove to be very, very dangerous to the both of them.
fic  gen  genderfuck  amnesia  long  angst  f:Marvel  f:Thor  s:Darcy/Loki  'LJ  movie-verse 
september 2011 by esther_a
He Sees Chapter 1, a magnificent seven fanfic - FanFiction.Net
On the emotional anniversary of his family's death, Chris learns something about Ezra that he'd never imagined
fic  gen  angst  short  f:Magnificent7  'ffn 
august 2011 by esther_a
Growing Pains
Sequel to A Nick in Time. Severus and Harry deal with the changes in their lives that are brought about by the friendship they forged in A Nick in Time.
fic  slash  angst  long  jossed  id:tiranog  f:HarryPotter  s:Harry/Snape  'personal-site 
may 2011 by esther_a
Crosscurrents by Keri Mera
October 1980: More challenges for Starsky & Hutch: The rumors are back, Gunther's trial is starting, and Rosey Malone is back in town.
fic  slash  long  angst  established_relationship  f:Starsky&Hutch  'archive 
may 2011 by esther_a
metisket | mephistopheles
Heine, sitting around and brooding. I guess this is vaguely Heine/Badou. Vaguely.
fic  angst  f:misc.anime/manga  id:metisket  f:DOGS  'LJ 
january 2011 by esther_a
A Proof by Contradiction (Eight Primary Sources)
Not-quite SF (think: game AIs and technological singularity). Probably the most gratuitously intellect-taxing fic on the vast internets in which the plot is "[chara] gets hit by a Mack truck, everyone is sad". ^^; Written for the Blind Go Guessing Challenge (September 2006), where people were kind enough to say kind things about it.
fic  angst  epistolary/document-fic  character_death  f:HikaruNoGo  'personal-site 
november 2010 by esther_a
Identity Theft Chapter 1: Identity Theft, a Detective Conan/Case Closed fanfic - FanFiction.Net
In which Kudo loses a few last hopes, and goes further into Kaitou Kid's head than he ever anticipated. Now a series, as the fallout settles and things don't -quite- fade into the dark.
fic  angst  gen  awesome  amnesia  id:ocianne  f:MagicKaito  f:DetectiveConan  f:DC/MK  'ffn 
november 2010 by esther_a
telepathicpixie: [Stargate SG-1] Not Just a Footnote
When Sha're first arrived on Earth and began to walk around in their world, the casual attitude towards the written word stunned her.
fic  AU  het  gen  short  angst  AU:canon_divergence  FemaleCharacters  f:SG1  'LJ 
october 2010 by esther_a
alived: Inception: in our bedroom after the war
inception: arthur/eames
pg-13, 2712 words
prompt: a role reversal where Arthur is the one pining after Eames.
fic  slash  short  angst  f:Inception  s:Eames/Arthur  'LJ 
october 2010 by esther_a
quigonejinn | Between.
The third courier comes at the end of fall, except he does not look like a courier.
fic  gen  short  angst  post-canon  f:AtLA  'dwth 
august 2010 by esther_a
Everything, Always - dreamdustmama - Merlin (BBC) [Archive of Our Own]
Arthur discovers Merlin's magic, but no matter how hard he tries he can't tell him that he knows - even when he starts having nightmares about Merlin's death.
fic  slash  angst  short  explicit  f:Merlin  s:Arthur/Merlin  'ao3 
august 2010 by esther_a
Remorse - Cephy - Tales of the Abyss [Archive of Our Own]
Written for the prompt: "Luke/Guy: injury/illness - I need you, how do I help you, you make me real"
fic  gen  short  angst  id:cephy  f:TotA  'ao3 
may 2010 by esther_a
cephy | Fic: TLR, "Memento"
David still couldn't bring himself to touch any of it for weeks.
fic  slash  angst  post-canon  short  futurefic  awesome  id:cephy  f:LastRemnant  'dwth 
may 2010 by esther_a
Last Rites, a Final Fantasy VII fanfic - FanFiction.Net
They are a society unto themselves, even in death. It's almost a religion. [Turkfic]
fic  gen  character_death  humor  angst  short  f:FinalFantasy  f:FF7  'ffn 
may 2010 by esther_a
dogmatix | [fic] Let's Do The Timewarp Again
Cloud gets a chance to save the world
A/N: Not as cracky as it sounds, but it works for a title. So, you know those timetravel fics where Cloud gets to fix the Nibelheim incident(which I absolutely adore)? I finally played through Nibelheim for Crisis Core, and, well, lets just say the massive WTF factor didn't got down any. This was my attempt to inject some sense into it.
fic  timetravel  short  fixit  angst  id:dogmatix  f:FinalFantasy  f:FF7  'dwth 
april 2010 by esther_a
The Archive at the End of the Universe :: Even Lovers Drown
Months ago, Harry Potter seduced Lucius Malfoy in order to gain access to his secrets for Dumbledore. Now, as he lies dying after the final battle against Voldemort, he has to confront the Malfoys one last time.
fic  slash  angst  ouch  short  character_death  emoporn  f:HarryPotter  s:Harry/Lucius  'archive 
april 2010 by esther_a
maldoror_gw: Naruto One-Shot: Missing
His sister's face was carefully controlled, but she looked oddly pale beneath her tan. A grim Kankuro trailed her into Gaara's office, followed, surprisingly, by Naruto, who should have been in Konoha last they'd heard from him. In his fist, Naruto gripped a Leaf headband sewn onto a red belt.
[not-death fic]
fic  slash  angst  id:maldoror  f:Naruto  s:Gaara/Lee  'LJ 
april 2010 by esther_a
recessional | Cliche Bingo - "Getting Physical: Touching, Hugging and Cuddling"
world: Renegotiations (Valdemar AU - see first on tag for details)
characters: Herald-Mage Vanyel, Royal Spy Tylendel, Companion Yfandes
rating: PG
notes: during the events set out in Magic's Price, when the kyree offer Vanyel refuge for recover
fic  AU  slash  angst  h/c  AU:canon_divergence  id:Recessional  f:Valdemar  s:Canon_Pairings  f:Mercedes_Lackey  'dwth 
april 2010 by esther_a
mctabby: Cat's Birthday HP Drabblethon II
Topic: "Sometimes I think I'd be better off dead. No, wait, not me, you." (quote by Jack Handy)
Word count: 693 (er, sorry)
Rating: G

Best. Marauder. Prank. EVER.
fic  gen  commentfic  humor  angst  jossed  id:gehayi  f:HarryPotter  'LJ 
march 2010 by esther_a
waldorph: MerlinFic: All the Laughter From Before (1/1)
It's pretty, but very distressing. And lo, all is sunshine and daisies... and death, but what can you do?
fic  slash  futurefic  angst  short  f:Merlin  s:Gwen/Lancelot  s:Arthur/Merlin  'LJ 
march 2010 by esther_a
lysapadin | [fic] HP - The Six Swans
The Weasleys, Harry, Draco
Summary: Ginny decides to break her brothers' curse, but circumstances attempt to intervene.
[not really shippy]
fic  AU  fairytale  gen  het  short  f:HarryPotter  s:Draco/Ginny  angst  'dwth  id:lysapadin 
march 2010 by esther_a
ennyousai_fic - Downloaded Series
Crossover of BSG 2003 and STXI. McCoy is the seventh Cylon model.
crossover  AU  angst  fic  meh  f:BSG:new  f:StarTrekAOS  s:Kirk/McCoy  'LJ 
october 2009 by esther_a
Outlaws, Aliens and Mutants - SGA fic -- Wake
John and Radek friendship fic. This is an episode tag for the season three episode "Sunday" and contains spoilers for it. In which John, Radek, Ronon and Lorne go to a bar....
fic  angst  gen  earthside  episode-related  f:SGA  'LJ 
september 2009 by esther_a
seikaitsukimizu: Fic: Found & Lost
"Now here he was, on some random backwater planet scoping an alien bar for any hints about where the Goa’uld who’d taken Sheppard might be hiding." [prequal to lavvyan's Lord of the Sea, Rodney as a Goa'uld AU]
fic  AU  angst  fic-of-fic  aliens  species_change  f:SGA  'LJ 
september 2009 by esther_a
House of the Living
[Adam/Kris, adult, explicit, horror-movie violence and consequences -- caveat lector!]
Megan had been calling them zombies from the get-go; after the third one, while Adam was busy puking his guts all over the sidewalk, she went around to all of them and hissed, "Listen, they're zombies, do you get it?"
fic  slash  zombies  angst  character_death  long  s:Adam/Kris  id:astolat  f:RPF  f:AI_8  'personal-site 
july 2009 by esther_a
Blood Speaks
Neville Longbottom was too young to know his parents as heroes.
fic  gen  angst  f:HarryPotter  'archive 
july 2009 by esther_a
While There Is Life, a Stargate: SG-1 fanfic - FanFiction.Net
AU epilogue to Forever In A Day what if Amaunet set it up from the start? [Daniel/Sha'uri]
fic  AU  fixit  episode-related  het  angst  FemaleCharacters  id:Vathara  f:SG1  'ffn 
july 2009 by esther_a
lucyjanesparlor: The Book of Daniel
Dean/the Vessel
Warning: Post-series. Character death.
Summary: I know why Castiel let me remember you. Not all who wander are lost. Not all who are lost, wander.
fic  slash  futurefic  angst  character_death  f:Supernatural  s:Dean/Vessel  'LJ 
june 2009 by esther_a
tracy_loo_who: Fic: Where All Paths Lead (Dean/Castiel, R)
When Dean's lips meet Anna's, Castiel is watching him. Uriel is watching Castiel. He knows how this will go.
fic  slash  angst  outsiderpov  f:Supernatural  s:Dean/Castiel  'LJ 
may 2009 by esther_a
Shoulders of Giants - Fic: Things Unsaid (Gen; side Spock/Uhura)
Four times Spock couldn't say 'I love you', one time he tried (and one time he did)
fic  gen  het  angst  futurefic  f:StarTrekAOS  s:Spock/Uhura  'LJ 
may 2009 by esther_a
vaingirlfic: Star Trek Fic: Four People James T. Kirk Never Told (and three he did)
A bit of Kirk/Spock/Uhura, but only a bit at the end there
Warnings: Oblique references to underaged non-consensual sex. Also reference to consensual sex between two minors. Nothing explicit here.
Summary: The obligatory angry, underaged non-con fic. Also known as, hey, why did Jim drive his step dad's car off a cliff?
Notes: Five things fic. This was supposed to be for a kink meme prompt, but got waaaay out of hand and failed to develop porn. Um. Sorry. Next time!
fic  gen  poly  angst  non-con  underage  f:StarTrekAOS  s:Spock/Uhura/Kirk  'LJ 
may 2009 by esther_a
sga_flashfic: Residual Heat by bluenight361 (7DS challenge)
It would take months to work through what McKay left behind. [not character death]
fic  angst  f:SGA  s:Rodney/John  'LJ 
may 2009 by esther_a
tales_of_josan: THE BREWER, in 9
They Portkeyed with him to Calais, the two Aurors assigned by the Wizengamot. Just to make the point that, though they had accepted his story, feeling was that there still had to be punishment for the deeds he had committed during his time with Voldemort.

Exile.
fic  gen  postwar  angst  h/c  awesome  id:Josan  f:HarryPotter  'LJ 
march 2009 by esther_a
The New Frontier
He rode into our valley six years after the end of the war. I was just a kid, sitting on the fence and watching the dusty road that wound down from the blue-grey mountains, waiting for something to happen. Nothing ever seemed to happen back then, especially not to an eleven-year-old girl.
fic  gen  futurefic  angst  outsiderpov  apocafic  character_death  FemaleCharacters  awesome  id:harriet_spy  f:SGA  'personal-site 
march 2009 by esther_a
Something More
He's out of practice with dealing with John, and it shows.
fic  earthside  angst  id:seperis  f:SGA  s:Rodney/John  'personal-site 
march 2009 by esther_a
It Doesn't Mean You Can Explain The Ocean
There are noises in the cosmic grapevine about three women in Savannah, about prophesy and oracle and older gods than even they know the words for, and Dean hears about it from a waitress at the counter of a diner off the side of a North Carolina freeway.
fic  angst  slash  incest-fic  awesome  id:rageprufrock  f:Supernatural  s:Dean/Sam  'personal-site 
march 2009 by esther_a
Unasked
Sam doesn't ask. [This story is inspired by It Doesn't Mean You Can Explain The Ocean ]
fic  slash  angst  futurefic  incest-fic  fic-of-fic  awesome  id:astolat  f:Supernatural  s:Dean/Sam  'personal-site 
march 2009 by esther_a
shantirosa: Fic: Crooked Heart (R)
Pairings: Merlin/Morgana, implications of future Arthur/Merlin, Arthur/Gwen and Lancelot/Gwen. Warnings/Spoilers: Assume spoilers up to 07: The Gates of Avalon, with spoilers for the teaser of 08: The Beginning of the End. Summary: Fate makes for difficult choices, and difficult goodbyes. Set in the not-so-distant future.
fic  futurefic  het  angst  f:Merlin  s:Merlin/Morgana  'LJ 
march 2009 by esther_a
FIC: To Be Known (Arthur/Merlin, PG)
So this is what it felt like to be normal. Merlin opens his eyes to the cool, shining metal of Arthur's unsheathed blade. "Sorcerer," Arthur spits. ~3,500 words.
fic  gen  angst  f:Merlin  'LJ 
december 2008 by esther_a
quillofferings: Hand of Sorrow (Spirited Away, shortfic)
There is so little that he can do for her now, despite his godly powers. She is human, and he is not; showing her too much favor will not help her, because in the modern world – and how he hates that very concept, of "modern" and "new" – it will be doing her no favors. Chihiro must make her own way, and all he can do is grant small boons that she will never be able to understand.
fic  angst  short  id:aishuu  f:Spirited_Away  f:StudioGhibli  'LJ 
december 2008 by esther_a
a queer and pleasant danger - we could be heroes
A tall tale is a uniquely American story form that features a larger-than-life, or superhuman, main character with a specific task. Many tall tales are based on actual people or on a composite of actual people. Exaggeration is the major element in tall tales.
fic  gen  epistolary/document-fic  angst  metafic  f:Supernatural  'LJ 
november 2008 by esther_a
Out of Heaven
Mentions past implied trauma, possibly sexual.
fic  slash  angst  id:james  f:Ghostbusters  s:Egon/Peter  'personal-site 
september 2008 by esther_a
The Letterblade Library - Thirty-Five Owls
(being a correspondence between Albus P.W.B. Dumbledore, Grand Sorcerer, etc., and the prisoner Gellert Grindelwald, of some decades in length)
fic  slash  angst  epistolary/document-fic  f:HarryPotter  s:Dumbledore/Grindelwald  'personal-site 
june 2008 by esther_a
amanuensis1: FICLET: (Temeraire-verse) "Immortal" (Angst, ~500 words)
"It doesn't look a thing like a swan," said the dragonet, uncrossing its eyes at last.
fic  short  futurefic  angst  f:Temeraire  'LJ 
june 2008 by esther_a
skyehawke :: archives :: :: Story :: A Bittersweet Aftertaste
SLASH :: AU :: Dubious Consent :: LM/HP :: AD/SS (implied) :: When starts the beginning of forever?
fic  dark  short  angst  slash  dub-con  soulbonds  character_death  evil!characters  f:HarryPotter  s:Harry/Lucius  'archive 
june 2008 by esther_a
If You Are Prepared
Dumbledore has a plan to keep Severus and the boy safe. Rated R, for language and content.
fic  long  slash  angst  character_death  underage  f:HarryPotter  s:Harry/Snape  'LJ 
may 2008 by esther_a
Standing in the Common Spaces
Smallville/Spiderman the Movie crossover: It's instant, like the click of a camera, a moment out of time captured and preserved. Even if he doesn't know why until now.
fic  crossover  futurefic  slash  angst  character_death  id:seperis  f:Marvel  f:Smallville  s:Clark/Lex  s:CrossoverPairing  'personal-site 
may 2008 by esther_a
The Ratio of Burning by Stillane
They hand over a fully functioning, loudmouthed genius with a penchant for sarcasm and slight irrationality. They get back a fully functioning, polite savant with a penchant for silence and serenity.
fic  angst  slash  favorite  f:SGA  s:Rodney/John  'personal-site 
may 2008 by esther_a
String Theory at 1 AM
Lex has vision, a reason for everything, and a lot to drink.
Fic  futurefic  Angst  ouch  awesome  id:x-parrot  f:Smallville  'LJ 
may 2008 by esther_a
Into the Woods
And Lana Lang - Is she a footnote? Is she a fulcrum?
fic  angst  favorite  awesome  id:rivkat  f:Smallville  'archive 
april 2008 by esther_a
And All the World Beneath
I have--a lot of people. samdonne issued the challenge back in January for a Dean meets John Sheppard that I couldn't--quite--get out of my head when I asked for prompts, which means I hit a record of answring four of my own prompts.
fic  crossover  slash  AU  earthside  long  apocafic  multipleuniverses  angst  character_death  awesome  id:seperis  f:SGA  f:Supernatural  f:Lovecraft  'personal-site 
april 2008 by esther_a
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